Thursday, December 29, 2016

poem and prophesy

a prince unborn yet eternal
a wolf charging deer it's rite
a stoneblood war internal

a sunchild kisses the night

yet through the demonic mist
yet through the limbs of trees
Yet through the blooded cyst
yet from the sun she flees

she was first and alone
she was born from a scar
she stall not atone
until the four retireve her star

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

hey guys

also reactivating my blog

Thursday, July 3, 2014

the warrior's way. - some days you just want to take off your armor and have someone caress your scars, and read the scripture life has carved in you. Then kiss those scars with understanding tenderness. and know the tome of you,  flesh is just the cover. The poetry in the book is in the pages within, and the eyes the prologue.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

karmic debt

Scot quote of the day - i am very explicit in my expectations, so there are no misunderstandings. Although I still never cease to be amazed at people's grotesque ingratitude and purposeful lack of comprehension.. Treating a new someone bad...ly because a past someone treated you badly doesn't really help your situation. that's like living in the dark because you were once burned by a candle. I keep my obligations but I am in no way obliged to be a proxy punching bag for someone else's misdeeds. I am not obliged to withstand that punishment. A man's job pays a man's price. But I will not pay another persons karmic debt. All I ask is that we treat each other with kindness and respect. You want to know how to treat people? be explicit in your expectations, so there aren't any misunderstandings, because what is unspoken leads to dysfunction LOL

Thursday, May 15, 2014

seduction

Rules of Blade seduction - P.O,W.E.R. - Pursuit, Overwhelm, Withdraw, Engage, Riposte - If I pursue you, run but keep my eyes.If I overwhelm you, get braver and grow stronger, If I withdraw, get closer, if I engage - accept, if I riposte yield to overcome and win through surrender
40 miles of bad road can lead to beautiful things, you fight the way you love. Or didn't you realize this.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014


In this poem I confess

As it often pleases

The gods like to play chess

 but don’t like to touch the pieces

and from the wounds they suture

from a blooded mistake

but you do not hire a butcher

to bake you a cake

and from that repast

you do as the she command

never put clothes on that fast

since “shit it’s my husband.”

for the words can oft misuse

and I can tell by your aura

You think you have issues,

 let me introduce you to Pandora

as we toss through the flow

and resign ourselves to fate

Friends may come,friends may go

but enemies accumulate

Friday, May 2, 2014

I'd die for you a hundred times
and in each time I live
for that kiss and eyes sublimes
and all the gifts I give, forgive

I'd die for you a thousand times
in the memory of that day
I'd give gladly all my rhymes
the altar to which I pray

I'd die for you ten thousand times
to save you from the grave
to never hear those funereal chimes
my life, if yours I'd save

I'd die for you a million times
never cheat, lie, or wrong you
all I ask is a kiss sometimes
you my heart through and through

I'd live for you for all of time, star-crossed
just to see that smile entices
for that happiness is worth the cost
of all my sacrifices

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Love comes in many forms, and often indirectly - sometimes it is taking the time to go out for them in a storm to cover their head with your cloak, while the rain pummels you and lightning cracks the sky and say "it's okay', the rain will stop and you'll once again see the sun"


cuddling the sensei saves lives, and showering with the sensei conserves water, it's for the planet,

“If you have it, Love, you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have.”

this helped make my day

Tanya Winters I've just realized you are the standard by which I judge helpfulness and kindness and all those "knightly" things by. And damn did you set that bar high.



scot quote of the day - a text message is as much a conversation as- a grain of sand is a beach - conversation like fighting, like a tango, is a dialogue

scot quote of the day 1 - you are not attracted to decent hard working sweet passionate adventurous men - hon ney the problem just may be you

Love like your life depends on it. Because it Does

scot quote of the day 2 - ( ran into old friend on the train ) subject: Marital advice - sweety you should be more direct and boink more
Husband - sensei is a wise man


Some people just need a random fatal beating for being the bastard lovechild of arrogance and stupidity - lol

scot quote of the day - your purpose is to subtract stress from me, not add to it - do you really want me to review

scot quote of the day 1 - dude you've been single longer than I have, so long your right hand decided to friend zone you

you will always be my hero, was the best thing I heard today

Some days after the gods beat you like a red headed stepchild, kick you in the nuts, and steal your wallet, you just have to keep fighting because what other choice is there. Some things get lost in translation, others evaporate in the confusion of muddled context. But love is, hope is and faith is. Worth fighting for.


 

Monday, April 28, 2014

Love comes in many forms, and often indirectly - sometimes it is taking the time to go out for them in a storm to cover their head with your cloak, while the rain pummels you and lightning cracks the sky and say "it's okay', the rain will stop and you'll once again see the sun."

Monday, February 17, 2014

A sensei question asked of me today - "My Sifu said, The dragon can never make its home in your heart because the Tiger has made it's den there long ago, There is nothing more I can teach you, you belong to the world now."
Firstly, "What did My Sifu mean by "you belong to the world now?"
second "What is my path back to the light or am I destined to live this life of darkness until I am reborn and start this journey again.?"
He left the path of Buddha and took up the sword.

My answer - the path of bhuddah and the path of the sword are not mutually exclusive -

the dragon is serenity, spiritual, with power, the tiger is unfocussed , physical, rage - you belong to the world now means - you exist and belong to the material world , not the spiritual. The path back to the light is to rid yourself of desire and expectation, all of the worlds suffering comes from what we covet, not what we need. sleep when you are tired, eat when you are hungry, drink when you are thirsty, be thankful for both the sun and the rain, and be water, flow and adapt, do not be forceful because force cannot beat force. The path to the light is the path of the darkness because desire blinds us.

here is what the student had to say,

I read the response and yes, it makes perfect sense. That's why I knew I had to ask a Sifu only they can capture terms and phrases so sensibly and with so much meaning. I am forever in your debt, thank u be well and may peace, charity and good fortune be with you all the number of your days kind sir -bows-

Monday, December 30, 2013

scot quote of the day - Sensei witnesses 20 something Guy in a profanity filled yelling rant at his girlfriend - I wasn't going to get involved - I just wanted my cigarettes, the store had families in it. I said " excuse me."

Guy -excuse you ****ing yourself ass****

Scot - listen infant, I have injuries older than you, and unless you want to have PTSD from me choking you with your umbilical cord, Show some manhood and treat your lady with respect. I don't have to curse once to put you back in your womb and hope you develop more, you zygote. I will eat you.

Guy ( attempts a witty retort, stumbles )

I go in for the kill

Scot - these conversations are so much easier with you X-box and action figures. Yelling at your girl doesn't make you a man, your really bad ink doesn't make you a man, being a man - makes you a man - Now grow up and apologize.

He stormed out with his girl - the cigarettes were free of charge
intellectual conversations with a 6 year old part 3
( Brandon wakes me up, and I am in a pre coffee haze - He's in Batman Pajamas )
Brandon - gonna eat your brain, you gonna sword me more swords fighting today ( begins eating my brain )
Scot - I'm going to need my brain for that
Brandon - No you won't its swords
Scot - Just let me have my coffee little dude
Brandon - can I have that spider man belt you have
Scot - nope, that's my student Billy's
Brandon - if I eat your brain you won't remember
Scot - Batman has his utility belt use that
Brandon - Batman doesn't need a belt he doesn't wear pants.

Friday, December 27, 2013

ntellectual arguments with a six year old -
Scot - You want me to eat your brain?
Brandon - No
Scot - Yes
Brandon - No
Scot - Yes
( 3 minutes later )
Brandon - No
Scot - No
Brandon - Yes
( I commenced eating his brain, and thought about how I learned most of my morality from bugs bunny )
Brandon - uncle scot is a stupidhead (laughing)
(Then I with all my intellectual and verbal powers went in with a devastating counter.)
Scot - Am not.
Brandon - Why?
( My mind flashed to Admiral Akbar at the battle of Endor , "it's a trap!!")
Scot - Well played young sir.



 intellectual arguments with a six year old - part 2

Scot - so brandon are you hanging out with me tonight
Brandon - Nu=uh , I got a play date with 2 girls
Scot - life is so unfair, your social life is better than mine
Brandon - (putting fingers up to head making an "L" sign ) Loser
( he walks over pats me on the knee ) it's ok, uncle scot, you can eat my brain later

Monday, December 23, 2013

sensei awesome moment of the day - Christmas came early - I went to finish Christmas shopping in the rainy chaos. At the toy store, I picked up a few needful thing and was watching an older boy chasing his little sister with a foam sword. He was swinging it wildly. Their poor mother was on her last nerve.
I asked if mother was ok. " He won't stop chasing her and being a bully."
I said " Give me one moment."
I took one of the foam swords and took the little girl aside. Put my back to the boy.
" He won't stop chasing me."
" I know, but here's what you do. It's called a retreat thrust"
After a quick demo. I continued shopping and waited. The berserker rage overcame the boy and he started charging her. She planted her feet and held the foam sword out in front her. The boy ran straight into the foam point and stopped. Completely stunning him and poking him in the nether regions. The mother burst out laughing and applauded. The girl giggled gleefully the way only little girls can. The boy stopped chasing the sister and I struck a blow for kids who were picked on, of which I was one. To me, that was my gift of the magi.

Monday, August 12, 2013

torrent flows,
Elysium tears
my blade knows
the sum of fears
I hold her hand
her touch cold
her kiss demand
a tale be told
so in this flood
a rain of reign
a tome of blood
shall remain
yet in that fable
on whispering lip
at valhalla table
the pages rip

Monday, July 1, 2013

a July morning

the boldest of statements, morning forms greeting the dawn, a gesture of kindness to a stranger, pics of my crew, a quick notes of love and beauty, the sensei is what he does, a sword of compassion, love itself cannot love as much as I

Thursday, March 28, 2013

possessions

objects can be replaced, people can not, the minute you make a person a possission they are lost to you, the minute you make an object a person you are lost to it. That is why we name weapons for the two become one. Blades break, edges blunt, but the soul that inhabits it, is your own.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

scot on nostalgia

Scot's line of the day - ( when asked about my bouncer days )

I miss the drinking and figting back in the day. My mag light had evidence tags on it - we named it peoples exhibit A - Phones didn't have camera's back then, you could beat deserving people and disavow all kowledge. I think everyone was sociopathic in the 90's

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Brokemon

If I was a cartoon, I’d be Brokemon – Poverty I choose you. As I have stated earlier, The Sensei is frighteningly comfortable with his own particular level of whoredom. But a person wealthy and beautiful tries to barter with me on my rate. Now this person is a millionaire from a wealthy family. In my career I have been offered many things for my services. Boink, poems, music, photography, costume... pieces etc. But today was the best. A “solemn” promise “ When I get famous – I’ll remember you.”- There was a momentary shock followed by. “ Are you effing serious? - A promise to remember me when you get famous is technically not legal tender.” I responded further “ Hun-ney - You may have nature's credit card. I have nature's bounced check. Beauty is a privilege not an entitlement . Pardon my lack of empathy. When the most you’ve ever suffered is waiting in traffic going to the Hamptons in the summertime. You are becoming an artist because you can afford to. To you it’s a choice. It’s the thing to do before you, get the tattoo that makes you all risky and individualistic, the brief affair with the coke dealing biker, the plastic surgery with the boob job, and the arbitrary marriage to one of the spare Romney sons from the yacht club. Most of us don’t have that luxury. We became artists cause that’s what we are. It’s a form of aesthetic indentured servitude. It’s a rough path. It’s worth every scar. Don’t try to con me or insult my intelligence. The three things I love the most about fighting - it's immediate, it get me out of my head and it requires someone to meet their obligations to me.” People make me laugh and want to re-legalize sword dueling. Wall street would finally have some accountability. I would love to see all these – “pulled self up by bootstraps” ( who started with millions by the way ) Ayn Rand-iots survive a sword duel.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Jack Hell - dream pirate - All the Love North of Hell - Prologue

ALL THE LOVE NORTH OF HELL




PROLOGUE





Mother Night had a daughter and a son. Dream and Death and the two have always been at war. There is a world between them, a borderland where we walk and sail the seas of Fate. Name is Jack Hell, private eye and pirate captain of the Dreamship Brightrazor.

I am a Namer. A wizard of sorts. I know the true names of scars, locks, doors, and blades. I got a face of 40 miles of bad road and a sword form smooth as Johnny Walker blue, with just enough burn to make you remember. I’m big but lanky, hair of amber and eyes with blues so deep Ella Fitzgerald would weep. I have a smile that would make the devil himself think twice.

I am putting a crew together. All women, I’m calling them Hell’s Belles. We are going to spite some demons and slay some dragons. But first you got to learn the true magic of names and walk through people’s nightmares. The timid need not apply. So if you see me in your dreams. I’ll be the least of your nightmares. I’ll be the scary guy in black. I’ll be at the edge just beyond the door. I’ll be fighting what scares you most.



There are two types of people in this world. The dreaming and the dead. I’m both. I walk and sail the borders between. I was born to the tapping of keys, not a piano. A typewriter. The ribbon raised, plummeted and pummeled the white plane of the page. My skin. I’d tell you who my father was. But you wouldn’t know him. Former pinkerton. Former rumrunner, former soldier, he was always a former something. He was obscure as a polite inadequate simile. That’s pretty fucking unremarkable. The night after the war ended. He was writing. Trying to get as many words for pennies that he could. There was tobacco, whiskey and maybe food to buy. He was cold – he survived the great war, saw a second one. This was the second time he fought the Germans. Even after being burned a taking in a bit of gas in war one. He volunteers for the second looking for a good death. He comes back from D day a lunger walking with a cane.

Name’s Jack Hell, which was an unfortunate accident of birth. I look like Hammet’s Blonde Satan. He was my inspiration when the pulp author that created me ate a gun and in that blood sacrifice gave me life. His hell was my salvation. I was just words on a page then. But the curses of the dying and names have a lot of power. I am a namer. You name something you have power over it. Names are petty little gods. I have four. Blades, Scars, Doors and Locks. The fewer names to more control. You can know a thousand true names and that of fire and you could barely light a smoke. But if you only knew the name of fire. Oh what you could burn.

I fight demons that haunt people’s dreams. I got a good crew. My girls – Hell’s Belles. And we have a job tonight.

I won the dreamship Brightrazor in a card game, well won is a euphemism. I caught the owner dealing from the bottom of the deck and buried a shadow sword into his eye. The cheating prick fell ass over teakettle in his chair. The blade evaporated in the light. It was a gentleman’s game. But we were one gentleman short. It was a quick clean thrust, from I shadow sheath I keep for these occasions. The pupil widened just as it struck home. I always keep shadows near me. So I can pull out a black blade from the scar as I need it.



The borderlands between the dreaming and the dead can be rough places. I had a few platinum ovals on a string around my neck. I’ll give them to my barkeep. For the bloody mess I leave him. The dogs will eat well tonight.

“ Sorry Larry” I says as I throw the oval “eyes” at him. He takes the coins and shakes his head. He’s a gargoyle of a man. Stone faced big as a mountain and half as mobile. Ashen skin that makes him look like he should be perched upon a cathedral. The skin pocked from a battle with small box as a boy.

“ S’alright “ He says to me as I walk out onto 13th avenue. NYC. The dream invasion happened 10 years ago. The demons overran the borders and they started to terror form the world. A world of fear. Well fear and dancing. “ Give the girls my love…” The slate colored man says as I walk out. “ You can always try to give your love to them in person.” I says in return. “ You’ve met me right?” he says with a sarcastic acceptance.



I always tried to explain my relationship with pain. I hit for a living, I fight I dwell and I deceive with a cunning blur and silver flash, too much pain have I caused and felt , through a wry smile and deliberate sad eyes. I give you, deduce, empathize, seduce, intimidate, reduce, extrapolate - D.E.S.I.R.E is the code of interrogation, the sword is the hand, the knife, the stick and the soul. And with love I would take all your pain, I can take it. Just for the one sincere moment of surrender. For the briefest moment of tenderness. I will swallow oceans of your pain with a smile.



The other wayfarer dreamship captains ask me – Why do you only have women on your crew. The answer is simple and self serving. I love women. All women are perfection. Its was written into my code. They are my weakness. The best way to build up an immunity to poison is to take a little each day.

Secondly and almost as important as dream knights they have a much better sense of the flow of a dream. They have better intuition. Their minds tend to be less rigid. They don’t tend to get as distracted. They also as fighters have a few distinct advantages. Many tend to be faster and have more stamina. They bear children after all. They’re the brains. I’m the muscle.

I can only sail the seas of dream. I can’t walk in the real world. But my lovelies can. I was a pulp creature of the 1890’s. Women couldn’t vote, they had to exert a different kind of power. The right person will always find my ladies.. There will be a nightmare that needs a good killing. Then we go in.



You got that all straight? – Good – let’s begin