Monday, December 30, 2013

scot quote of the day - Sensei witnesses 20 something Guy in a profanity filled yelling rant at his girlfriend - I wasn't going to get involved - I just wanted my cigarettes, the store had families in it. I said " excuse me."

Guy -excuse you ****ing yourself ass****

Scot - listen infant, I have injuries older than you, and unless you want to have PTSD from me choking you with your umbilical cord, Show some manhood and treat your lady with respect. I don't have to curse once to put you back in your womb and hope you develop more, you zygote. I will eat you.

Guy ( attempts a witty retort, stumbles )

I go in for the kill

Scot - these conversations are so much easier with you X-box and action figures. Yelling at your girl doesn't make you a man, your really bad ink doesn't make you a man, being a man - makes you a man - Now grow up and apologize.

He stormed out with his girl - the cigarettes were free of charge
intellectual conversations with a 6 year old part 3
( Brandon wakes me up, and I am in a pre coffee haze - He's in Batman Pajamas )
Brandon - gonna eat your brain, you gonna sword me more swords fighting today ( begins eating my brain )
Scot - I'm going to need my brain for that
Brandon - No you won't its swords
Scot - Just let me have my coffee little dude
Brandon - can I have that spider man belt you have
Scot - nope, that's my student Billy's
Brandon - if I eat your brain you won't remember
Scot - Batman has his utility belt use that
Brandon - Batman doesn't need a belt he doesn't wear pants.

Friday, December 27, 2013

ntellectual arguments with a six year old -
Scot - You want me to eat your brain?
Brandon - No
Scot - Yes
Brandon - No
Scot - Yes
( 3 minutes later )
Brandon - No
Scot - No
Brandon - Yes
( I commenced eating his brain, and thought about how I learned most of my morality from bugs bunny )
Brandon - uncle scot is a stupidhead (laughing)
(Then I with all my intellectual and verbal powers went in with a devastating counter.)
Scot - Am not.
Brandon - Why?
( My mind flashed to Admiral Akbar at the battle of Endor , "it's a trap!!")
Scot - Well played young sir.



 intellectual arguments with a six year old - part 2

Scot - so brandon are you hanging out with me tonight
Brandon - Nu=uh , I got a play date with 2 girls
Scot - life is so unfair, your social life is better than mine
Brandon - (putting fingers up to head making an "L" sign ) Loser
( he walks over pats me on the knee ) it's ok, uncle scot, you can eat my brain later

Monday, December 23, 2013

sensei awesome moment of the day - Christmas came early - I went to finish Christmas shopping in the rainy chaos. At the toy store, I picked up a few needful thing and was watching an older boy chasing his little sister with a foam sword. He was swinging it wildly. Their poor mother was on her last nerve.
I asked if mother was ok. " He won't stop chasing her and being a bully."
I said " Give me one moment."
I took one of the foam swords and took the little girl aside. Put my back to the boy.
" He won't stop chasing me."
" I know, but here's what you do. It's called a retreat thrust"
After a quick demo. I continued shopping and waited. The berserker rage overcame the boy and he started charging her. She planted her feet and held the foam sword out in front her. The boy ran straight into the foam point and stopped. Completely stunning him and poking him in the nether regions. The mother burst out laughing and applauded. The girl giggled gleefully the way only little girls can. The boy stopped chasing the sister and I struck a blow for kids who were picked on, of which I was one. To me, that was my gift of the magi.

Monday, August 12, 2013

torrent flows,
Elysium tears
my blade knows
the sum of fears
I hold her hand
her touch cold
her kiss demand
a tale be told
so in this flood
a rain of reign
a tome of blood
shall remain
yet in that fable
on whispering lip
at valhalla table
the pages rip

Monday, July 1, 2013

a July morning

the boldest of statements, morning forms greeting the dawn, a gesture of kindness to a stranger, pics of my crew, a quick notes of love and beauty, the sensei is what he does, a sword of compassion, love itself cannot love as much as I

Thursday, March 28, 2013

possessions

objects can be replaced, people can not, the minute you make a person a possission they are lost to you, the minute you make an object a person you are lost to it. That is why we name weapons for the two become one. Blades break, edges blunt, but the soul that inhabits it, is your own.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

scot on nostalgia

Scot's line of the day - ( when asked about my bouncer days )

I miss the drinking and figting back in the day. My mag light had evidence tags on it - we named it peoples exhibit A - Phones didn't have camera's back then, you could beat deserving people and disavow all kowledge. I think everyone was sociopathic in the 90's

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Brokemon

If I was a cartoon, I’d be Brokemon – Poverty I choose you. As I have stated earlier, The Sensei is frighteningly comfortable with his own particular level of whoredom. But a person wealthy and beautiful tries to barter with me on my rate. Now this person is a millionaire from a wealthy family. In my career I have been offered many things for my services. Boink, poems, music, photography, costume... pieces etc. But today was the best. A “solemn” promise “ When I get famous – I’ll remember you.”- There was a momentary shock followed by. “ Are you effing serious? - A promise to remember me when you get famous is technically not legal tender.” I responded further “ Hun-ney - You may have nature's credit card. I have nature's bounced check. Beauty is a privilege not an entitlement . Pardon my lack of empathy. When the most you’ve ever suffered is waiting in traffic going to the Hamptons in the summertime. You are becoming an artist because you can afford to. To you it’s a choice. It’s the thing to do before you, get the tattoo that makes you all risky and individualistic, the brief affair with the coke dealing biker, the plastic surgery with the boob job, and the arbitrary marriage to one of the spare Romney sons from the yacht club. Most of us don’t have that luxury. We became artists cause that’s what we are. It’s a form of aesthetic indentured servitude. It’s a rough path. It’s worth every scar. Don’t try to con me or insult my intelligence. The three things I love the most about fighting - it's immediate, it get me out of my head and it requires someone to meet their obligations to me.” People make me laugh and want to re-legalize sword dueling. Wall street would finally have some accountability. I would love to see all these – “pulled self up by bootstraps” ( who started with millions by the way ) Ayn Rand-iots survive a sword duel.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Jack Hell - dream pirate - All the Love North of Hell - Prologue

ALL THE LOVE NORTH OF HELL




PROLOGUE





Mother Night had a daughter and a son. Dream and Death and the two have always been at war. There is a world between them, a borderland where we walk and sail the seas of Fate. Name is Jack Hell, private eye and pirate captain of the Dreamship Brightrazor.

I am a Namer. A wizard of sorts. I know the true names of scars, locks, doors, and blades. I got a face of 40 miles of bad road and a sword form smooth as Johnny Walker blue, with just enough burn to make you remember. I’m big but lanky, hair of amber and eyes with blues so deep Ella Fitzgerald would weep. I have a smile that would make the devil himself think twice.

I am putting a crew together. All women, I’m calling them Hell’s Belles. We are going to spite some demons and slay some dragons. But first you got to learn the true magic of names and walk through people’s nightmares. The timid need not apply. So if you see me in your dreams. I’ll be the least of your nightmares. I’ll be the scary guy in black. I’ll be at the edge just beyond the door. I’ll be fighting what scares you most.



There are two types of people in this world. The dreaming and the dead. I’m both. I walk and sail the borders between. I was born to the tapping of keys, not a piano. A typewriter. The ribbon raised, plummeted and pummeled the white plane of the page. My skin. I’d tell you who my father was. But you wouldn’t know him. Former pinkerton. Former rumrunner, former soldier, he was always a former something. He was obscure as a polite inadequate simile. That’s pretty fucking unremarkable. The night after the war ended. He was writing. Trying to get as many words for pennies that he could. There was tobacco, whiskey and maybe food to buy. He was cold – he survived the great war, saw a second one. This was the second time he fought the Germans. Even after being burned a taking in a bit of gas in war one. He volunteers for the second looking for a good death. He comes back from D day a lunger walking with a cane.

Name’s Jack Hell, which was an unfortunate accident of birth. I look like Hammet’s Blonde Satan. He was my inspiration when the pulp author that created me ate a gun and in that blood sacrifice gave me life. His hell was my salvation. I was just words on a page then. But the curses of the dying and names have a lot of power. I am a namer. You name something you have power over it. Names are petty little gods. I have four. Blades, Scars, Doors and Locks. The fewer names to more control. You can know a thousand true names and that of fire and you could barely light a smoke. But if you only knew the name of fire. Oh what you could burn.

I fight demons that haunt people’s dreams. I got a good crew. My girls – Hell’s Belles. And we have a job tonight.

I won the dreamship Brightrazor in a card game, well won is a euphemism. I caught the owner dealing from the bottom of the deck and buried a shadow sword into his eye. The cheating prick fell ass over teakettle in his chair. The blade evaporated in the light. It was a gentleman’s game. But we were one gentleman short. It was a quick clean thrust, from I shadow sheath I keep for these occasions. The pupil widened just as it struck home. I always keep shadows near me. So I can pull out a black blade from the scar as I need it.



The borderlands between the dreaming and the dead can be rough places. I had a few platinum ovals on a string around my neck. I’ll give them to my barkeep. For the bloody mess I leave him. The dogs will eat well tonight.

“ Sorry Larry” I says as I throw the oval “eyes” at him. He takes the coins and shakes his head. He’s a gargoyle of a man. Stone faced big as a mountain and half as mobile. Ashen skin that makes him look like he should be perched upon a cathedral. The skin pocked from a battle with small box as a boy.

“ S’alright “ He says to me as I walk out onto 13th avenue. NYC. The dream invasion happened 10 years ago. The demons overran the borders and they started to terror form the world. A world of fear. Well fear and dancing. “ Give the girls my love…” The slate colored man says as I walk out. “ You can always try to give your love to them in person.” I says in return. “ You’ve met me right?” he says with a sarcastic acceptance.



I always tried to explain my relationship with pain. I hit for a living, I fight I dwell and I deceive with a cunning blur and silver flash, too much pain have I caused and felt , through a wry smile and deliberate sad eyes. I give you, deduce, empathize, seduce, intimidate, reduce, extrapolate - D.E.S.I.R.E is the code of interrogation, the sword is the hand, the knife, the stick and the soul. And with love I would take all your pain, I can take it. Just for the one sincere moment of surrender. For the briefest moment of tenderness. I will swallow oceans of your pain with a smile.



The other wayfarer dreamship captains ask me – Why do you only have women on your crew. The answer is simple and self serving. I love women. All women are perfection. Its was written into my code. They are my weakness. The best way to build up an immunity to poison is to take a little each day.

Secondly and almost as important as dream knights they have a much better sense of the flow of a dream. They have better intuition. Their minds tend to be less rigid. They don’t tend to get as distracted. They also as fighters have a few distinct advantages. Many tend to be faster and have more stamina. They bear children after all. They’re the brains. I’m the muscle.

I can only sail the seas of dream. I can’t walk in the real world. But my lovelies can. I was a pulp creature of the 1890’s. Women couldn’t vote, they had to exert a different kind of power. The right person will always find my ladies.. There will be a nightmare that needs a good killing. Then we go in.



You got that all straight? – Good – let’s begin

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

takes one to know one

last night - my friend Lori's boy Austin had nightmares - He asked "Can sensei come over?" - I, of course went over. She is recently divorced and her boyfriend couldn't be bothered to drive 4 blocks to help. Austin and I chased out the monsters in his closet, under his bed, and in his toy box. He with his toy lightsabre. He slept well. Lori gave me a beer and I went home. I know something about the anatomy of monsters.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Searching

Where are you I ask


Putting self to task

Scars conspire the mask

Broken winged heart needs soar





Heart blasts of thunder

Cerulean eyes of wonder

The true name of sunder

Mind and heart at war





Only thought that love

The lonely swan song of

Talons rip the dove

A wish for it’s surcease





Enough of idle chatter

For the morale of the matter

Hollow bones will shatter

And find a piece of peace



For in this random talk

The eyes and talons of a hawk

The lift and dive and stalk

A solitary hunter known to few





Angels will surely weep

With the secret they must keep

It is she that steals my sleep

drowned eyes of oceanic blue



With her wit me unseeming

my half soul of her dreaming

This joy within me teeming

Her spirit sets me free



Lost in redeeming eye

“gods!”, this warrior poet defy

She is love’s reason why

and she will come to me

Monday, January 28, 2013

The first sword of escrima does not run

The first sword of escrima does not run – literally – for those who know me know my old saying “ I don’t run because I an vain and I look like shit when I run. That’s why I learned to fight. “ An old friend of mine recently divorced with a 6 year old boy lives a few blocks from me. Her boyfriend was out of town.  I get a panicked phone call saying “ I think someone is trying to break in.” Now a reasonable man who is currently without his truck would say. “ Call the cops.” Remember I said a reasonable man. Not the sensei, he had to run. Cause the sensei lives for silly cheap heroics. So I bolted there. And if anyone was trying to break in. There were scared off by the 6’3 inch, chain smoking man, held together by duct tape and prayer, mass of screaming warrior poet howling a line of profanity that bordered speaking in tongues. Obviously there was no intruder and my friend chuckled. If there was an intruder I most likely would have collapsed upon him, immobilizing him until the authorities arrived. Now that I have my breath and I am settling in with a beer. Life is good. I can’t feel my lower extremities and my nipples can cut glass. But still the old man still got it. Whatever it is I’m not sure. And I am going to spend the rest of the evening not going into the light. Cheers.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

CHESS

CHESS - From Love and Monsters by Scott Ferrara
MINOTAUR -

What do you know of chess Thesseus? It might save you someday. Hell, it might save of all. We’ve been locked in the story for so long, what part are you missing? The rook are hate, straight forward and brutal. The bishops are fear. They slip in, do their damage and slip away. The knight’s deceit the sneakiest piece on the board.... The queen is indifference the opposite of love and the king is love, the piece on which the whole game rests. The pawns are people so easily wiped out by the emotions. In chess there is a winner and a loser. The winner gets the spoils and the loser lies hurts in some way. So the only way to truly win is to get a stalemate, where there is no winner, no loser and love is left. There is a war thesis between the brutal and the gentle, the savage and the civil. The winning gambit, the ideal stratagem is to strike a balance between them. Don’t tear yourself in two. End this. Let them go back to the ocean. If I kill you, only our positions will change. You’ll be the monster and I will be the hero and I will kill you for a century or two. I’ll tip over my king and you’ll have victory if you want it. Icarus will still fall into the sea, you will ruin an abandon Ariadne on a island after she gave up everything to save you. And your father will throw himself into the sea when he sees your ship fly a black sail. Why odes it have to end that way? Running wax, burnt feathers, tears and curses. Why can’t you stay with her and keep her love? Naxos, the isle of abandonment is a long way away. Aren’t you tired? I’m so tired.

And with that,
He tipped over his king.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

the heirophant - a request

they say it is the holy show




this wisened charlatan



borrowed plummage upstart crow



as hand sleights slighted began



the keeper of this oratory



fills the baskets with poor invites



tell them an olden story



and promises devine delights



always hungry always smiling



it never eats or cooks



snapped by the metal curve reviling



the toungue with thousand hooks



cause is it luck or fortune gold



heaven's gifts he relates



fate may favor the bold



but forgets her unfortunates

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Beginnings

Writing and fighting, and love itself still cannot love as much as I.